Nicky Beer
Hibiscus Headwound

The mirror and I aren’t

on speaking terms

right now.

 

Neither of us wants

to be the first

to say I’m sorry.

 

You know how it is—

 

the same stubbornness,

the same staunch conviction

in our own infallibilities.

 

But. So many

decades knitting

us together

like a badly-healed bone.

 

Those nicknames

for each other

we’ve never spoken aloud.

(Butterbug. Pookita. Triangle Tits.)

 

Our quest for the shade

of red lipstick

that will finally solve

all our problems.

 

(The latest is called

Hibiscus Headwound,

almost perfect.)

 

But all that’s

on hold

during our current standoff.

 

One of us

will come around—

we always do.

 

A sudden,

prolonged sob of regret,

like a damp rag

dragged against glass.

 

Then back to the grim business

of visibility,

of daylight

and its unseemly touches.

 

At least neither of us are

alone with this

inexcusable face.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 
Found In Volume 55, No. 04
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About the Author

Nicky Beer is the author of Real Phonies and Genuine Fakes (Milkweed, 2022), winner of the 2023 Lambda Literary Award for Bisexual Poetry. Her other books, The Octopus Game (2015) and The Diminishing House (2010) both received the Colorado Book Award for Poetry. She has received honors from the Guggenheim Foundation, the National Endowment for the Arts, MacDowell, the Poetry Foundation, Ragdale, and the Bread Loaf Writers’ Conference. She is a professor at the University of Colorado Denver, where she is a poetry editor for Copper Nickel.